These hands

As I look at my hands sometimes I see them growing older right before my eyes. Then I remember what all these hands have done in this life time. They held my mothers hand as I learned to walk. I use them to express myself! I have been told that I couldn't talk without them! (: which is true! I was given a special ring by the love of my life that meant he would love me forever.
I have held my sweet babies and they have held my sweet babies little ones also. They have wiped a many tears and they have hugged so many! I clap with excitement with the boys and hold them so tight with them. I make special dinners with them. I have taken care of my wonderful husband and my momma with them. So I think that when I look at them now I will look at them differently from now on. They have seen so much love mostly! I even have a special wave to Dennis with them. We started it a very long time ago and nobody gets a wave like that but him. So hands hold on we still have so much more to do.

Life

Yesterday we started going through the things in Mom & Dad's house. Terrie brought Dad from the Nursing Home and we sat and talked, cried and then started with what we have been putting off for the last 3 months. It is time to do this. I can't believe that we were having to do this but then everyone goes through this at some point in their lives. A lot of things made me smile and some made me cry!
There is so much to go through and it got me thinking of what the girls would go through one day as they go through my stuff! Will they cry, laugh and sometimes wonder what was I thinking when I bought that!
Mom and Dad took a trip out west after they retired and before Dad had to have a liver transplant. Mom  brought back 2 things from that trip that we wondered what she was thinking! One was a huge Texan Fly swatter! The other was this lamp that has mushrooms and a tree. It is a touch lamp and the kids all loved to play with it.
It is amazing how just a certain spoon or a dish can make you smile. There will be more days of going through things along with more tears and laughing.
I walked back in the house after everyone left to lock up and close the blinds and it was started to look a little empty but it wasn't sad anymore. I think Mom would of been proud of all of us yesterday! She would of wanted for us to get this over and get on with life. She will always be with us not matter if the house is here or not. I love you Momma and miss you so much! You taught me so much about life. We were a good mother to us all!

Life is amazing!

Some of you might now that Dennis has been battling depression for some time. It really seemed to get worse after all the surgeries! And rightly so after the last one when they had to put 3 metal straps in to secure his sternum. After the first surgery his wires all broke and they had to go in and repair it with the straps.
I know how hard it was for me and I can't even imagine how he must of felt!
He has been doing so much better lately after a different medication. Matter of fact his Doctor was really surprised when he saw him yesterday. He said he looked great! He looked healthy and that look was gone from his face. I noticed it on the way over in the car. I kept looking at him and saw such peace in his face.
A look I haven't seen in a long time.
Today we had Cameron and then picked up Drew after Pre-school. We ate lunch and then He told the boys to put on their bathing suits that they were going to play in the sprinkler! I saw a man that I  haven't seen in a long time today. He has such peace on his face. It was wonderful to see this! You see I have loved this man for so long and didn't know at times if I could hang in there with him. Well today I am glad I did! We changed the boys after their play time with papa and then took a nap together. He just looked at the boys sleeping and smiled! So you see Life is Good!!
So if you are or know someone that is battling depression, get some help and hang in there!
Love to all,
Pam